The recent passing of South African musical sensation Zahara, born as Bulelwa Mkutukana, has not only stunned her dedicated fan base but has also cast a revealing light on the personal depression she grappled with throughout her life.
Unveiling Zahara’s Inner Demons: Confronting the Depths of Depression
Despite her remarkable career, adorned with an impressive 48 awards, Zahara silently fought profound personal battles. Her public life was burdened by financial troubles, tax disputes, and a candid admission of struggling with alcoholism, notably in her quest for rightful royalties from TS Records in 2019.
However, beneath the surface, Zahara’s resilience faced an unrelenting battle against depression, a silent adversary she openly addressed. In an interview with Tbo Touch on Metro FM earlier this year, she courageously shared the toll cyberbullying exacted on her mental health.
“You thought you gave me a name, and you thought you gave me a gift. The person that gave me the gift, which is God, will see it through. It’s not about you, it’s not about me. He is going to let it live whether I like it or not,” she said.
Her words echoed the pain inflicted by hurtful comments, underscoring that she, too, grappled with the invisible claws of depression.
“People go through depression whether I know it or don’t know it. There’s no way I did not go through depression. There’s no way that I did not feel what you guys were saying to me, the daggers that you were pointing at me and digging me, that I did feel no pain.”
The Dark Veil of Coping: Zahara’s Struggle with Alcohol
Amid her internal battles, Zahara turned to alcohol, initially seeking solace in its numbing embrace. Reflecting on her brother’s tragic passing, she confessed to using alcohol not for happiness but as a means to find solace and sleep amidst her sorrow. In an emotional interview with TimesLive, she unraveled the layers of anguish that pushed her towards alcohol as an escape from her pain.
“I used to drink for myself to be happy, but now I saw I was drinking to sleep because of my brother’s death and what the company was doing to me. I couldn’t talk to nobody because I was scared of everything,” she said.
Sadly, the weight of her loss and the turmoil within her career coerced her into a state of isolation, fearing communication due to the overwhelming fear that encompassed her.
Zahara’s struggle with alcohol as a coping mechanism unveiled the profound depth of her anguish and how, at times, it clouded her ability to confront her inner turmoil. Her candidness in acknowledging these battles revealed the vulnerability beneath her public persona, fostering a deeper understanding of the challenges she faced.